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I've been reading everyone's ICC posts, etc., and I admit as to having mixed feelings about missing the event. I am especially disappointed that I didn't get to attend what would be the last event for some of the folks that I know and love, yet, unfortunately, my life is taking other directions as well where the global events are concerned, and cutting back on my travel schedule was a necessary evil.
For me, everything seems to go in cycles. I get involved and I immerse myself in the Org from a time, and then I turn around and pull back from local events and participate mostly through travel, and then I turn around yet again and remove myself from all activity, and after a brief respite, and I turn around and start the cycle over again. It's like I've never completely found my "groove" where the Org is concerned. That might be because so many parts of it are appealing to me. I'm not just in it to socialize, or to game, or to serve, all are equally important to me, though all might not be equal at all times.
I think that my relationship with/in the Cam is constrained like everything else by two factors - money and time. On one hand, getting heavily involved in the local chapter is time-consuming, but generally not resource (money) intensive. On the other hand, travel to regional events takes less time (but is constrained by the amount of vacation time available at work), but is definitely resource intensive. I've decided to step up my participation locally, mainly because I'm trying to focus on my goal of purchasing the house in July of 2006.
It's a big goal, financially, obtaining this house will be a real stretch if I don't receive another promotion at work (although I've been assured that the liklihood of that happening is very high within the next 6 mos. or so). Plus, based on my income, I need to come up with a sizeable down payment, at least 20 percent so that I can avoid PMI. I worry about not being self-disciplined enough to make my goals, even though I always seem to pull something out of my hat at the last minute.
Que sera sera, I can't worry about it too much or that will be self-defeating.
I start writing the novel tomorrow. I think that NaNoWriMo will be a cathartic exercise. At least, I hope so. I enjoy writing, and don't spend nearly enough time doing so. No excuses next month, however.
Oh, and I woke up this morning with a blasted chest cold. I'm not happy, but there's not a lot I can do about it. I immediately started taking Sudafed Severe Cold formula (which is about the only thing I can take that won't put me to sleep), and am planning on taking the day off of work tomorrow if I don't start feeling better by mid-afternoon. I can't afford to get really sick, and I can't be out today at work. Way too much to do, it's month end, and we need to reduce our inventory some more before day's end. Plus, I'm 3 days behind in auditing for quality. It's going to be a rough day today, considering that I feel like hell and have so much to do.
I need to crawl into a hot shower and get ready for work.
Ciao for now.
For me, everything seems to go in cycles. I get involved and I immerse myself in the Org from a time, and then I turn around and pull back from local events and participate mostly through travel, and then I turn around yet again and remove myself from all activity, and after a brief respite, and I turn around and start the cycle over again. It's like I've never completely found my "groove" where the Org is concerned. That might be because so many parts of it are appealing to me. I'm not just in it to socialize, or to game, or to serve, all are equally important to me, though all might not be equal at all times.
I think that my relationship with/in the Cam is constrained like everything else by two factors - money and time. On one hand, getting heavily involved in the local chapter is time-consuming, but generally not resource (money) intensive. On the other hand, travel to regional events takes less time (but is constrained by the amount of vacation time available at work), but is definitely resource intensive. I've decided to step up my participation locally, mainly because I'm trying to focus on my goal of purchasing the house in July of 2006.
It's a big goal, financially, obtaining this house will be a real stretch if I don't receive another promotion at work (although I've been assured that the liklihood of that happening is very high within the next 6 mos. or so). Plus, based on my income, I need to come up with a sizeable down payment, at least 20 percent so that I can avoid PMI. I worry about not being self-disciplined enough to make my goals, even though I always seem to pull something out of my hat at the last minute.
Que sera sera, I can't worry about it too much or that will be self-defeating.
I start writing the novel tomorrow. I think that NaNoWriMo will be a cathartic exercise. At least, I hope so. I enjoy writing, and don't spend nearly enough time doing so. No excuses next month, however.
Oh, and I woke up this morning with a blasted chest cold. I'm not happy, but there's not a lot I can do about it. I immediately started taking Sudafed Severe Cold formula (which is about the only thing I can take that won't put me to sleep), and am planning on taking the day off of work tomorrow if I don't start feeling better by mid-afternoon. I can't afford to get really sick, and I can't be out today at work. Way too much to do, it's month end, and we need to reduce our inventory some more before day's end. Plus, I'm 3 days behind in auditing for quality. It's going to be a rough day today, considering that I feel like hell and have so much to do.
I need to crawl into a hot shower and get ready for work.
Ciao for now.
