ICC, etc.

Catching up - I went to see my PCP - got good news/bad news. Good news - my ankle wasn't broken after all (hence why I was not limping around at ICC). Bad news - I have developed gout. (Horribly painful condition, can be reoccurring for the rest of my life). This has been caused by my rapid weight loss and the thiazuride diuretics that I am taking. PCP wants to see me back in 3 weeks. My potassium levels are also way out of whack so he increased my dosage of potassium while cutting back on the amount of diuretics I'm taking. Of course, this caused me to gain back 10 lbs. of water weight, but I'm thinking that maybe this is not such a bad thing as the lack of water in my system was what was causing some of my other side effects (nosebleeds, dry mouth, the gout, etc.).

My thoughts on ICC. It was OK, it wasn't great but it was OK. I had never been to a Conclave session before (I was sick when I went to ICC '99 and slept through it). It was very impressive and the RP was stellar.

For a while yesterday, I had talked myself into thinking that I was going to renew, and start playing actively again. As of this morning, I'm back to being undecided. I want Pearl's story to come to a decided end, but I don't want her to just knuckle under and make it easy either.

Aka, I couldn't get myself killed, though I did try, and I did seed the plot that might wind up getting her killed... but the question is, how long is it going to take to play it out?

I have a bunch of thoughts on why things occurred as they did, but I don't want to whine... and once again, I just realized that even though I had a reasonably OK time at ICC, I feel compelled to bitch and moan on LJ about the things that bothered me.

Which reminds me that this is the whole reason I decided to drop out of the club to begin with. Gah, this frustrates me on a level that no one else will understand.

I want to spend more time with my dad, and I have to reserve a lot of vacation time to be used as sick time because I just have to face the facts that I'm not the most healthy individual in the world (and no, this isn't completely linked to my obesity... I was a sickly child (and very thin))...

I called in late this morning because I'm just not moving that quickly. Plus, I need to sort laundry and do another couple of small errands before I go into work. Just thought I'd vent/post a little (since I was chastised by some of those on my friends list for not posting more often).

Know that I love you all, in the Cam or out. Even those of you whom I've never met except as "pixels on a page" are important to me because we've connected intellectually (even though hugs are much better).

Once again, I'm in flux and questioning my decisions. I hate that, and I hope I resolve something soon. I have a plan, we'll see what happens.

Ciao for now.