Life is awesome...

One of the things that I have been doing of late is working a lot on what I call my "inner life." Most specifically, the internal dialog that all of us hear daily within our own minds. I've been working hard at eliminating negative messages, trying to keep from calling myself derogatory terms such as "fat, lazy or stupid." This is one of the things that experts say is "crucial" in order to live a positive, productive life.

Now, I wasn't unsuccessful before. I think this was mostly due to the Herculean effort I gave each day in order to overcome these negative scripts I played for myself over and over. But I know that everyone who knows me knew that I was stressed out, anal-retentive and a control freak. I just didn't know how to slow down.

I am happy to say that is changing. What I'm telling myself these days is changing, and I'm learning not to sweat the small stuff. Hopefully everyone else will like the more laid-back me. But if they don't, I don't really think I care all that much. For the first time in a long time, I am happy with me, extra weight and all. I'm doing the things I need to do to get healthier, and in time, I will be healthier. But it's not worth stressing out over because those damn stress hormones are part of what keep an obese person fat.

Ciao for now.