Loss

[tinuvial]

There is nothing quite like the sundering of mage from familiar. Normal mortals come close when they lose a spouse, a child or a parent. But it's still not the same thing. You see, magic binds the souls of the mage and their familiar, and there is nothing short of death that can sever that bond.

Now, the mage must some how find the strength to go forward with a huge chunk of their soul unceremoniously yanked from their being. In time, another familiar will answer their call. A new animal guide to walk on their journey with them. At least, the mage desperately hopes for that. Otherwise, the remainder of their days would truly be a hollow existence.

But first, the mage must fill the hole left behind. But with what? Some try to fill it with alcohol, but the hole can never be filled with liquid. Others try to fill it with meaningless relationships, but none of that temporary love compares to the unconditional bond they once had.

So all there is now is grief. In time, it will turn to acceptance. Then, the healing can begin, and bit by bit, each act of kindness performed or received will begin to fill the hole left behind. And someday, when the hole has been filled, another call can go out for a new animal guide.

But until that time, there is only emptiness.

Comments

Hugs

[isis-lives.livejournal.com]

Sending blessings to the emptiness within.

Re: Hugs

[tinuvial.livejournal.com]

Thank you. The most comforting thing was having the vision of his 'rebirth'. I saw the cat turn back into the kitten to move on to his next of however many nine lives remain for him. It was one last gift he shared with me.

Re: Hugs

[nevermind-that.livejournal.com]

That is beautiful.

I am sorry for your loss, but the vision of his rebirth must have been such a great comfort.

[deza.livejournal.com]

There is beauty in the grief. This is the time to remember and honor that bond, and to send a noble spirit on with gratitude for what you shared. *hugs*

It's been 12 years this month since my familiar went to the Rainbow Bridge. Even if I never have that bond again, I will always cherish what we had and the lessons I learned from him.

[tinuvial.livejournal.com]

Thank you. The most comforting thing was having the vision of his 'rebirth'. I saw the cat turn back into the kitten to move on to his next of however many nine lives remain for him. It was one last gift he shared with me.

[wqalice.livejournal.com]

My thoughts are with you in your time of loss. As one who has an aging feline companion, I know that could happen to him at any time as well.