Letting go...

The theme for today is letting go. Letting go of clutter, of things of no value that I've kept simply "because." Letting go of emotions that are not productive. Letting go of tears. Yes, there has been a lot of "letting go" today.

As I've stated repeatedly over the past few months, I feel as if someone pressed the reset button. One of the things that had always defined me before was that I knew who I was, and where I was headed. I'm not completely certain of that any more, but I'm no longer as fearful of that feeling as I once was. It's not so much that I don't know who I am, I'm fairly certain that once the outer turmoil is resolved, the inner self will realign itself. But my priorities have changed. What I *want* from life has changed.

I've invested a lot of my time, money, and energy in a particular direction. It's still the direction I'm headed, but I'm not sure I want to take the superhighway to get there. Meandering along the back roads may just be fine after all. But I realized I don't want to get there alone either. I want someone to travel with. I'm no less independent than I was before, I'm just more cognizant of how much more pleasant the journey can be if its shared.

The end result is that I'm still unsettled. I'm no less determined that before, but I think I need to back up the bus and check to make sure that I'm taking the right road.

Yeah, I know, this was cryptic, metaphoric and most likely confusing to anyone who doesn't already understand how strange I am. Deal.

Ciao for now.